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This is a message that I wish to leave to the gentlemen of my life that I have dated or had relationships with.

I guess you would say I had a weakness for handsome guys. This followed me from puberty in high school all through my life.

My Mom always told me that some day my ass would run away with my head and she weren't far from being right. Maybe if it hadn't been for this weird obsession that haughted me, I could of made one of my marriages work.

I am quite sure that my second marriage would have lasted a life-time if I had given it a chance. Kenny and I had a good thing going and I believe it was my impatience that caused that break-up of our marriage and our family.

I have no excuse for my behaviour. I guess it was just something I was born with. I would have loved to of married, had my family, and lived happy ever after but I guess that just was not meant to be.

As for my second Hubby "Kenny", he was more real if you know what I mean. We really would have had a good thing going if it hadn't been for the alcohol and drugs. I really loved Kenny and I believe if the curcumstances were different those 16 years would have been a lifetime instead.

However, I guess it is no good crying over spilled milk as thay say and I am sure that knowing my medical problems,Kenny, you must be happy that you now have someone who will be with you.

For my soul mate I would like to leave this message below

( " hint " .. as I promised ):

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Maybe it will be better next time.

You know who you are.

See you afterwards OK?

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Sincerely, Crystal.

My first marriage to Wayne was a bad excuse of a reason to get away from my parents, plus I was pregnant.Today I hold a lot of resentment for Wayne, however I cannot say that I "hate" him as he did help me make that first step out on my own and I thank him for that.

Gordon Davis ? .. What can I say? He was the worst mistake of my life. I have never met anyone so mean and evil as him before in my life.

People do not understand why I did not get rid of this man a long time before I did. There were reasons for that. What would you do if you seriously felt that your family would be harmed if you did not do as you were surposed to?

No-one but me knows how unbearable it was to stay with him, but I truly believed that to leave him would be even worse and God only knows what he would do.

I still fear that man today and if I was to encounter him in the right circumstances I cannot discribe the things I would like to do to him. This is one person that I will say I "HATE" and with a passion.